About the Poem

This poem is about the pain and confusion I felt when my best friend told me that the guy I was falling in love with was still in love with her. For some reason, even though I knew it wasn't her fault, I felt this burning anger toward her, not toward him. I was confused and my head was spinning, I couldn't even reason with myself or her or my feelings. I cried for an hour, and then I wrote this poem.

Her

by Linzi

I hate my life, I should have known
That you'd love her, leave me,
Alone
Why I ever thought you'd love me
I, myself, will never know
Drowning in my tears of sorrow
I try not to let it show

I know it's not her fault you love her
But I can't hide my hate for her right now
I've lived in her shadow for as long as I remember
Alone, unloved, yet surviving, somehow

When she told me that you still loved her
I thought I'd die right there and then
The happiness in her voice,
A knife
Cutting through my soul, my skin

I didn't realize how much I loved you
The pain I felt was strong, disabling.
All I could see was the smile on her face
The anger, ripping, tearing, nauseating.

I know I won't stop loving you,
ever
No matter how hard I try
I don't know if I'll ever really
forgive her
I always feel a hate for her inside

Sitting here now, I don't know how to feel -
Sadness, Hatred, Despair
I'm not sure
Why does this always happen to me
This is a pain that no one deserves.

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14 Visitor Comments

Alaina

i loved this poem i cried

ashley

I can relate to this poem like it were the exact thoughts that were in my head at the time.

Amber

I loved this poem. I'm going through the exact same thing. I hate the feeling of having the guy you love, love your best friend especially when your best friend knows how you feel about him and comforted you when he broke up with you!. LUV THE POEM!

Ash

THIS POEM IS REALLY GOOD MY BOYFRIEND LEFT ME FOR A CHICK AND THIS POEM EXPLAINS EVERYTHING BECAUSE THE CHICK WANTED HIM SO BAD SHE SENT ME HATE MAIL AND SENT HIM LETTERS SAYING I LOVE YOU AND STUFF. THANX

Rachael

this poem is soo true with me right now. The one i love loves my one of my good friends and im starting to hate her for it. And she thinks its cool to have two guys fight over her when she nos i like one of them. its sad. but i love this poem its great

kathy

Hey girl, I really loved your poem. Let me let you know your not alone. just keep your head up high and stay strong.

amanda

I have this exact feeling I'm going through right now only its been about 2 months. Im almost positive that this love will stay but just knowing Im not going through this alone and having people there beside me is a little more comforting. She put it in words that just explains it all I would love to be able to post this on my site if i could get the authors permission

Jerrica

I felt what this girl was going through because it happened to me. Yet, I'm old enough to know this is a lesson I learned in love and there is probably many more to come.

Lyndsay

This poem was exactly how I used to feel and sometimes get a reacurrence of it. I am with him now, but..she still pops in once in a while. It sucks.

JEFF

got the same kinda of problems in a different way

Lee

I know how you feel.

triniti

This is a great poem.It's something I can kinda relate to.

Latisha

I have The same feeling about someone else. I read this poem and memories crashed through my mind.I loved him so much, And he left me for my sister.Thanx for everything you don't know you've done yet.It help me realize alot more than I've ever realized.Thank you so much.

jason

it shows lots of emotion and passion that not many of us have

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